![]() |
On the way back: From Kokchurang to Tsokha |
“Often the best guys are just those that can suffer longer, who don’t give up. And it’s so easy to give up, when you’re on a mountain and it’s really hurting” — David Millar
=======================================
Day 6: From Lamuney (13,693 feet) to Goecha La (16,000 feet) and back to Kokchurang (12,096 feet)
I woke up to an empty campsite on the pass climb day. Eti had woken me up when they left around 3am. I had refused to go and gone straight back to sleep.
I crawled out of the tent with some trepidation: What if I found a clear sky and realised that the rest were enjoying some superb out-of-the-world view of Kanchenjungha? But for the first time, the weather was in no mood to disappoint me. It was just as gloomy as it had been the day before.
I immensely enjoyed the solitude that morning. It seemed as if I was the only person in this vast, mighty landscape (though I knew some of the crew must be inside the small log-hut nearby that served as the kitchen as well as their sleeping quarters). There was no sound to be heard except for the wind beating against the tents, the foaming water of the river and the faint tinkling of the yak bells.
I went about the daily tasks totally relaxed that morning. For the first time in the trek, I was not fighting World War III. There were no whistles and no marching orders. And I relished the break.
I went to the hut looking for Dinesh the cook, hoping to get something for breakfast. Someone woke him up on seeing me. “Hi, can I have something to eat?” I asked him. “Of course you can,” Dinesh said triumphantly. That was his standard line. Sometimes I felt Dinesh was the male incarnation of Goddess Annapurna. Feeding mankind seemed to be his sole purpose in life.
![]() |
Primulas at Kokchurang. Pic: Eti Kynjing |
Dinesh was very happy to see me free enough to eat my fill, not being rushed into the next climb. “Sit down,” he ordered like a warden, “Today I will make sure you eat properly.” Both he and Tashi were forever complaining that I was not eating enough. Both seemed to be 200% sure that I wasn’t getting enough energy because of that.
As I ate, I asked him if the team would see anything in this weather. He dismissed the possibility with a confidence that made sure I did not lose my appetite. I don’t remember what all I ate — or rather what all Dinesh fed me — but it took me half an hour to finish it. Finally he was satisfied and let me go.
=======================================
I started packing my things at a leisurely pace — even the sleeping bag had become tame by then. I was still in the tent when I heard voices. I realised the others must be back and then I heard Kuntal calling out to me from outside the tent. The moment I peeped out, he said very excitedly, “Urmi, don’t be disappointed. No one saw anything.”
I couldn’t help but feel pleased. I hadn’t told Kuntal I wasn’t going; neither did he ask me anything. But he knew how disappointed I would be if I missed out on the ‘real thing’. “We went till View Point 1. But the weather was terrible and it started snowing. We had to get everyone back,” he went on.
“You know, Tashi said ‘This Urmi is the smartest. She did not risk it in this weather,’” said Kuntal. I laughed. Had the skies cleared up by chance, Urmi would have been the stupidest. It was just a gamble that had paid off. Before leaving Kuntal said, “Eti wasn’t feeling too well. Take care of her when she returns.”
I was worried for Eti because we’d have to walk till Kokchurang after an early lunch. When she finally returned to the campsite, Eti looked like someone who had been exhumed three days after burial (I probably looked the same, just that I never had the courage to look at myself in the mirror).
Mostly, she was depressed and demoralised. She hadn’t even liked Samiti Lake. “It looked exactly like Tshangu Lake (in East Sikkim),” she grumbled. She had been there a few months back.
I wasn’t surprised. Most of these mountain lakes look beautiful due to the reflection of the sky and surrounding mountains in the water. And that view is not available if there’s no sunlight.
A patch of snow on the way from Kokchurang to Tsokha |
Eti said she had a headache. “Get some sleep,” I told her. She was not getting enough rest; it was apparent from the dark circles, which had been growing bigger by the day. She did, and did not even get up for lunch. I did not coax her; I already knew what it was like from my Thansing experience.
Tashi, who was ladling out the food, was heartbroken. He was very fond of Eti and looked miserable when I told him she was slightly ill. Eti finally woke up and had the bread that had been packed as breakfast for the morning trek.
=======================================
It had started raining by then and there was no sign of it letting up. Both of us hoped it would, because otherwise, we would have to test our fantastic raincoats, something neither of us wanted to do. It also meant we would have to climb down in the rain, not at all a very encouraging proposition.
But we were soon told that we would leave camp at the right time, whatever the conditions. Glumly we started preparing for that. While choosing to carry only our windcheaters, we had obviously thought what we would do to cover our heads. My jacket (which is partly woollen and partly waterproof) has a hood and I had planned to wear the windcheater over the jacket. Unfortunately Eti’s had none. So she — hold your breath — had planned to put on a shower cap!
Now she fished it out of her bag, slowly put it on, and started admiring herself in the mirror she had picked up in NJP. I watched her silently through the entire process. In fact, I can still see her when I shut my eyes. There she was, sitting with her legs spread out in front of her, her belongings lying in a mess all around, with the shower cap on her head. When she finally looked at me, we stared at each other for a couple of seconds and then, burst out laughing.
“What are we doing here Urmi, amidst all these people with all their wonderful gear and superhuman strength?” she croaked. “I have been asking myself that question since Day I,” I tried to look serious. “I’m yet to find an answer.” We looked at each other again, and once again, we burst out laughing. “Don’t laugh so much,” I tried to look serious again, “Or they’ll say we have AMS.” Another explosion of laughter.
I can’t remember how long we kept laughing. Suddenly, we heard voices calling out to us from outside the tent. We peeped out to find that the men had come to pack the tents! Usually that was done when the team had vacated the campsite. We were totally taken aback. It was still raining hard and it appeared that while we were laughing like madwomen, most of the team had left for Kokchurang.
Hastily, we helped each other slip on our raincoats, both furious that no one had bothered to wait for us (C’mon, girls will be girls. We are used to a bit of pampering). The raincoats came down to our feet and were big enough to accommodate our daypacks (and my camera) too. And then, we started for Kokchurang as fast as our legs could carry us (and that was not very easy given that we had five layers of clothing on apart from the raincoat). Eti was in no mood to stick to “mountain rules” and asked me to walk with her.
We grumbled all the way to Thansing, which we completed in surprisingly quick time. And then began the more difficult descent to Kokchurang. All this while we were on our own, with no sight of either our trekmates or the crew. Somewhere midway from Thansing to Kokchurang, we found Dinesh, Tashi and another Nepali chap Dondu waiting for us. It had stopped raining before we had reached Lamuney and the “walk in the rain” is something we will cherish forever. Thankfully, the leucoplast held and the raincoats worked.
Dinesh accompanied Eti while Tashi was allotted to me. After a while, he started hurrying me up, infuriating me even further. While trying to climb down fast, I slipped on the stones. As I tumbled sideways, I broke my fall with my hand, but not without hurting my arm. Now I exploded. “Stop rushing me. I won’t go any faster than what I feel is right for me. You can go ahead if you are in a hurry. As it is, if I injure myself, you are the one who’ll have to carry me down on a stretcher. Now take your pick,” I told him angrily. Tashi did not dare rush me after that.
Our little party made it to Kokchurang in reasonably good time. Eti and I sat and sulked on the bench inside and Pradeep looked at us with some concern. “You guys are not drenched, are you?” he said. “No,” we sulked in unison.
The beautiful and mysterious forest on the way from Kokchurang to Tsokha |
I heard that Kuntal had been taken ill, probably struck by AMS, after the morning trek and had been whisked away to Kokchurang early. Finally, my concern for him cooled me off. I later asked him why no one had told us before leaving. He claimed the announcement had been made. We probably missed it because we were in the tent, busy laughing our heads off.
Day 7: From Kokchurang (12,096 feet) to Tsokha (9,650 feet)
This was the day I had been dreading because it essentially meant passing my bete noire Phedang once again, and climbing down that awful track. The previous evening, Pradeep had, as usual, flashed all his teeth and announced, “Guys, tomorrow is another long day.” But there was something more. He had now drawn up a list of people he wanted to start off early. Not surprisingly, my name was on top of the list. And, I was in absolutely no mood to do it. Because it essentially meant getting up before 6am, which we were already doing.
As usual, I woke up at 6 the next morning. I did not even want to get out of my sleeping bag. I watched Eti dragging herself out of hers for the morning tea, for which the mad whistle was blowing in full force. We had slept in the trekkers’ hut and the ‘dining room’ was right outside our room. I saw Eti walking out with her mug like a zombie. “Won’t you brush your teeth first?” I suggested. “I’ll do it later,” she said gloomily before walking out.
I always skipped the first round of tea and therefore, stayed put in the sleeping bag. Eti returned after a while. The breakfast whistle was blowing in full force by then. I saw her walking out with her plate. “Hey, where are you going? Won’t you brush your teeth even now?” I said, surprised.
“No I won’t. As it is, who will admire our pearls in the middle of World War III?” sighed the great Miss Eti, who makes it a point to brush her teeth twice a day as religiously as she reads her Bible. Then she looked at me and, as it had become a habit by then, we burst out laughing.
I finally dragged myself out of the sleeping bag and made for the river flowing nearby with my toothbrush and toothpaste. Pradeep was standing right outside. “You are setting off to brush your teeth NOW? I had told you yesterday that it was going to be a long day,” he was furious. So was I. “You say that EVERY day. What’s special about today?” I fought back valiantly. “I say that every day because every day is a long day,” he retorted. “Besides," he said, "why do you have to brush your teeth anyway? I don’t brush my teeth whenever I’m out on a trek. I will brush them when I’m back in Yuksom.”
I thought for five seconds. But I could not think of anything remotely civil to say to him. So I left defiantly, with my toothbrush and paste for company. Pradeep looked exasperated and Dinesh and Tashi, who were sitting behind the tables ready to feed the world, looked very sad. But I couldn’t care less.
=======================================
I had thought that toilet sheds at Dzongri would earn the ‘worst of the lot’ title, but the ones at Kokchurang took the cake. They were exact replicas of the ones at Dzongri with an extra feature. None of the doors had a latch. I entered and exited all four of them stupidly, looking for one with a latch. Finally I accepted to my horror that none had any.
I held the door all the time, fearing every second that one of the yakmen or crewmembers would kick it open. Thankfully, no one did. I went to Eti and asked her how she had managed. “Oh god, I held it all the while,” she giggled. “So did I,” I said and we were once again in splits.
Finally I left for Tsokha, but feeling surprisingly light. After a while I realised I had left my daypack in the hut. Kuntal volunteered to get it. He knew I would take double the time anyway. I don’t remember much about the day’s trek except for the fact that the rain had made it horribly slushy. At Phedang (which, as far as I’m concerned, again took an aeon to reach), we stopped for lunch and then, started down that dreadfully steep trail to Tsokha.
I looked down from the top of the trail and thought nostalgically about the days when I used to have vertigo. The trek seemed to have cured it along with a host of other maladies. I was looking at this filthy ‘flight of stairs’ — full of mud and dung blended together into a perfectly squishy mix by all the hooves and feet going up and down — that seemed to lead straight down to the deadly depths of hell.
I sighed and started off. I remember slipping on the mud somewhere and landing on the step itself in a sitting position. “If I had to fall, why didn’t I go all the way down?” I complained. I got up and hadn’t taken even two steps down when I heard a ‘sqeeeesh’ followed by a ‘thud’ right behind me. Kuntal had managed to slip at exactly the same spot where I had. “I did not fall completely. I broke it, unlike you,” he protested when he heard me giggling.
Another time, when we were doing a particularly narrow section of the trail, I slipped and tumbled dangerously towards the gorge. Though I managed to regain my balance easily, from a pull on my bag I realised that Kuntal had grabbed it. “Would you have managed to stop me from falling just by grabbing my bag? My arms would have probably slipped right through,” I said. “Who said I was trying to save you? I was trying to save the bag so that I would have some evidence that I tried to save you,” he said, tongue firmly in cheek.
=======================================
At Tsokha, we got the trekkers’ hut. But since there was not enough room for all, tents were also set up. Eti and I chose the tent. Our tentmate found an empty tent and left and the two of us finally had some privacy. Eti had some ABBA songs stored on her mobile phone and we had a good time humming along to ‘Dancing Queen’ and ‘The Winner Takes It All’. We felt like winners anyway.
Tashi reading a newspaper and testing my knowledge on the trail from Tsokha to Yuksom |
The post-trek party was held in Tsokha itself because apparently the crew disappears once they are back in Yuksom and it’s hard to drag them back from their families and friends then. We had a special cake baked by Dinesh and it’s one of the best I have ever tasted (and it’s not only because of the circumstances I was having it in). He had no fancy oven to bake it in and how it came out so deliciously soft and moist only Dinesh knows.
There was a dance, too, by all the Nepali guys — Tashi, Dinesh, the yakmen and porters — and Kuntal joined them. Both Eti and I wanted to join too (we are never too tired of a dance), but since no one else seemed game, we felt awkward. Besides, I couldn’t be sure that with all those sore muscles, I would not look like RoboCop dancing.
Tashi used to hum a song, ‘Simple Simple Kanchi’, all the time and for the first time, we all heard the full version of the popular Nepali film song as they danced to it. [I heard it during my stay in Gangtok, too, and loved it and ‘Resham Firiri’ so much that I downloaded them the moment I returned home. ‘Simple Simple Kanchi’ is still my ringtone.]
It was a wonderful evening.
Day 8: From Tsokha (9,650 feet) to Yuksom (5,700 feet)
We set out at a leisurely pace the next morning. Very soon, I found myself all alone. I thought maybe it was an easy route, so there was no one to watch over me. I did not bother much. The weather was sunny now, as we had got while leaving Tsokha on the way up. In fact, we got clear weather in Kokchurang, too, much to the disappointment of the team. It came just a day too late.
I ambled down the road with my mind in a sort of emotional vacuum. I was neither sad nor happy. I wondered what I had got by climbing up and down 9,000 feet in such conditions? There was no spectacular view that people who travel in the comfort of cars miss. A part of me wanted to get out of there as fast as possible. But there was another that simply did not want to leave these mountains. It wanted to be lost in these hills, these forests, without a care in the world.
But my philosophical musings were short-lived. I found Dinesh, Tashi and Dondu waiting for me round a corner. Oh god, not again, I thought miserably. They played with me, sometimes disappearing down the track and reappearing somewhere else. I pretended to ignore them, but they refused to be ignored. Finally, realising that I was in no mood to hurry up, getting busy with my camera round every corner, Tashi seriously took up the job at hand — to ensure that I reached the lunch spot, Mintogang, on time.
Soon, I was alone on the trail with him. I decided to bombard him with the questions I kept asking Kuntal every day. “What is the distance we are covering today?” I demanded. “Char (four) kilometre,” pat came the reply. “What?” I stopped in my track. “Char kilometre?” I asked stupidly. “Yep,” he said with a deadpan expression. “I believe I have already walked much more than 4km,” I protested. “No no, it’s been only one kilometre,’ he insisted.
The trail from Tsokha to Yuksom |
I looked at him hard. Either he was mad or I had gone mad (when I had left Kolkata I had not been mad enough not to know the difference between one and four kilometres). Maybe all the daily bouts of AMS had done something to my brain. I tried to figure out if he was joking. But he wore his deadpan expression very convincingly. Finally I had an idea. “Are you saying it’s 4km as the crow flies,” I asked. “Yes,” he said after a brief pause. “Well, I’m not a crow. I don’t fly,” I replied, trying to copy his deadpan expression. “Tell me the distance on foot,” I said. “Umm, chhey (six) kilometre,” said Tashi. I gave up.
I asked Kuntal later about the mystery of char kilometre. “It was Tashi’s ploy to keep you walking,” he laughed. “What ploy?” I was surprised. “He was pretty certain you’d simply sit down on the road and refuse to walk if he told you the actual distance,” Kuntal explained. I was angry as well as amused. “But what is the actual distance,” I asked. “Seventeen kilometres,” he said.
After a while, Tashi started hurrying me. Finally, after keeping it from him for a long time, I told him that I had been having some trouble breathing. He didn’t say anything but looked uneasy. “Will it help if I hold your hand and give some support,” he asked finally. I wasn’t too sure it’d help, but didn’t want to disappoint him and agreed. Once I did, there was no stopping Tashi. He dragged me up and down those mountain tracks as if I were a trolley bag. What a sight we must have made! A young lanky Nepali lad marching valiantly through the hills and a half-dead, unkempt woman tottering behind him like a rag doll.
To pass time, I decided on some small talk. I asked him how old he was. “Twenty,” he said. “Oh, you’re about as old as my nephew,” I said happily. But Tashi was crestfallen. “How old are you?” he demanded. I told him. He looked shocked. “Why aren’t you married yet?” he enquired. I knew it was coming. Eti had already had the experience. “What to do,” I tried to look sorry. “All the good men are taken.” But Tashi was dead serious. “No, no, you must get married,” he insisted. Finally, I changed the topic.
The subject veered to my job. Tashi wanted to know what I do for a living. “I’m a journalist,” I said. “A reporter?” he asked. “Not really,” I said, “I’m on the desk.” As I expected, he did not know what it meant. I explained it to him as best as I could. He was still not satisfied. Finally, he took a copy of the newspaper I work for from a passing yakman. And I had to show him what pages I work on and explain in detail what all I do on the page. Still not satisfied, he asked me the meaning of an English term. I tried my best to explain it in Hindi. At long last, he looked pleased. I hoped I had passed the test.
When we reached Mintogang, many of the team were still there, having lunch. Tashi triumphantly went to eat his meal. He had done what Kuntal couldn’t do; he had brought me somewhere on record time. “He was dragging me as if there was a tiger after us,” I joked with my teammates. “But even if there had been a tiger, I would have said, Tiger sonny, please eat me up, I am not taking one step further.”
=======================================
Post-lunch, Kuntal was back with me. It was an easy route and neither of us was in a hurry to get back. We chatted along the way.
“So, how many injuries are you carrying back,” he asked. “Two sprained ankles, a torn thigh muscle and a sore arm,” I replied. “Not bad for a first-timer,” he laughed. “And wait, there’s this funny-looking boil I have on my left wrist,” I said.
After a good look at the boil that was nearly dry by then, he asked, “When did you get it?” “Sachen,” I said, “While going up.” He only said “Hmm” in reply. “What? What is it?” I asked, knowing that he was keeping something from me. “It’s probably leech,” he said finally. “It seems to have sucked blood for an entire night till it dropped.”
“But I never saw it,” I protested. “Thank god for that,” he smiled mischievously. “The trees of Sachen were spared.” What’s it got to do with the trees?” I said. “Had you seen the leech, you would have screamed all the leaves down,” he started laughing.
We stopped for a break near the Sachen campsite. Kuntal told me to go ahead and said he would catch up. I turned towards the trail and saw a beautiful bright-blue bird straight up ahead peering out of some bushes. It was probably a blue whistling thrush, though I can’t say for sure. The IH site promised that there were lots of birds to be seen on the trail, but so far, I had seen none. Very slowly, I took the camera out of the bag and was removing the lens-cap when Kuntal, who was turned the other way, made a noise. I froze. The bird flew away right in front of my eyes.
Kuntal turned around and saw me standing like a statue. “What the matter?” he asked, puzzled. “Nothing,” I said and started walking.
When I reached the spot where the bird had been I looked down at the valley towards which had bird had flown away. I scanned the green mountains for a tiny speck of blue somewhere, but the bird had gone for good. And along with it, my only chance of photographing a bird on the trail.
The trail winds its way up the hills |
Kuntal caught up with me soon enough. “So, you have nearly completed the trek,” he said. “How are you feeling now about those demons?” I thought for a while. What had seemed like a festering wound eight days back seemed like a faint scar from a long-forgotten injury now. Probably the demons couldn’t keep up with me during the Phedang climb. But I wasn’t sure if they would return once I went back to my usual life in Kolkata. “Don’t worry. Remember I had told you, you would win your battles? You’ve already won this one. I’m sure you will win that one too,” he smiled.
Finally, we could see the huts of Yuksom down the hill. I had made it all the way and back, without the aid of a stretcher.
=======================================
The first thing I did on getting back was to take a shower. But before that, I stood for a full five minutes admiring the things we take for granted in our daily lives — little wonders like the wash basin, the commode, the taps... The bathroom looked like one at a five-star hotel.
My hair seemed like a rainforest. Stupidly I had taken only one pouch of shampoo to the bathroom. It vanished without a trace like a weak river in the rainforest. Desperately I started rubbing a bar of soap until finally, some of the grime was washed off my hair.
I had forgotten one pair of track pants at home and was left with only two. Both were beyond use unless they were probably washed with 10kg of detergent and I still had four days of stay left in Gangtok. I unzipped the legs off my cargos and wore it like shorts. (I later bought a pair of track pants in Gangtok to return home looking civilized enough.)
We were given our certificates after dinner and Pradeep made a little drama of giving mine at the end, making it a special mention, and I hated him for that. We also bought T-shirts with the message “Bloody Hell! I did Goecha La!” as mementos.Then, as Kuntal had already told me, the young lot of us went to Tashi’s house nearby for a ‘tumba party’. ‘Tumba’ or ‘tongba’ is a Nepali alcoholic drink made from fermented millet. Thirteen of us along with Pradeep and Kuntal squeezed inside Tashi’s modest kitchen as his sister prepared our drink. She stuffed the millet (already fermented) inside cylindrical bamboo vessels and poured boiling water in it. We were supposed to use straws to drink the water and once it was over, more water was put, until all the alcohol was gone. There was also some delicious chicken to go with the drink.
Two of us were sharing a drink each and since Eti did not like it, it fell on me to finish off ours. I got very high very soon. So did Ram. Finally, he said he had had enough and wanted to return to his lodge. “Wait,” ordered Kuntal. “Are you sure you know your way back?” “Ram nodded like an obedient pupil. But Kuntal, drunk as he was, was adamant. “Show me which way you’ll go.” Ram gave him a detailed description. Finally satisfied, Kuntal let him go.
He came back and squatted next to Pradeep on the floor. There was no space left on the benches. The two of them sitting on their haunches, huddled next to each other, sipping their tumba — it’s a picture that still brings a smile on my face.
I was supposed to be the first to leave the next day. It was a shared taxi that the lodge owner Subba-ji had arranged and the car was to pick me up at 6am the next day. Pradeep and Kuntal started teasing me: “You’ll never make it that early after drinking so much tumba. You’ll go with us again on our next trek.” I was really worried about the getting up part. Kuntal promised to wake me up at 5.
Finally, we left for our respective lodges around midnight. The drunken lot of us laughed and joked and cussed all the way back. At our lodge, Eti and I asked Pradeep how much we had to pay for the tumba. He and Kuntal said it was a treat from them. But we refused. We were very happy just to have been at the party.
![]() |
Saying goodbye. In the background is 'Kancha Cheena'. Pic: Eti Kynjing |
Unfortunately, the tumba parties stopped from the next batch. Apparently Subba-ji objected saying people create a ruckus later. I suspect Eti and I were partly responsible for that. Because, back in our room, we laughed for half an hour, packing our stuff and generally being happy that we were alive, with no broken bones, and the fact that we had returned walking on our own feet and could still stand on them. Even Kuntal and Pradeep heard us from their room at another side of the lodge.
Obviously no one knew that Eti and I are perfectly capable of laughing like drunkards even when we are perfectly sober.
=======================================
Kuntal turned up exactly at 5am to wake me up though I had been awake for an hour already. Then, he promptly went to his room to doze off as if he had been drugged.
My driver arrived at 5.40am instead of 6 and started yelling for me to hurry up. I happily picked a fight with him. He was a tall, broad-shouldered, muscular chap and I must have looked comical arguing with him in my 5ft-3inch frame. Finally, Subba-ji intervened and stopped us from tearing each other apart. Eti was worried that I should go off “alone” with his man and his helper and said her goodbyes looking very concerned.
After a bone-jarring, nerve-wracking and spine-chilling 6/7-hour ride in the rickety cab with 11 other passengers, I landed up in Gangtok in muddy shorts with swollen feet and bleary eyes. The driver — who looked very much like the villain Kancha Cheena played by Sanjay Dutt in ‘Agneepath’ — was not exactly the monster I had thought he was. He brought my backpack down from the top of the car himself and simply grunted when I reached for it. Without a word, he walked off towards a city cab, loaded my backpack in it and told the driver where to take me. Then he walked off before I could thank him.
I slumped back in the taxi. All the bones, muscles, arteries and veins in my body seemed to be giving up, but I still had three days of sightseeing and a paragliding plan ahead of me. I wondered if I’d be able to pull it all off. But well, that’s another story altogether.
=======================================
Eti turned out to be slightly less shameless than me. It took her another month to decide that she wanted to trek again. (A little bit of craziness and (mis)adventure is in our system I guess.) And so, we are planning World War IV this summer.
Kuntal was right. Even after I returned to Kolkata, the demons of the past year did not seem to bother me. And they have not bothered me since.
So hopefully, the next time I’m in the mountains, I will only be chasing the angels.
THE END